Note that the responses here are universally in favor of you getting covered and getting treatment.
I have a second recommendation that comes with some unjustified stigma: seek counseling.
Any healthy person can/will feel depression or even guilt about this diagnosis. You might be able to manage those emotions, but they might also sneak up on you when you're not expecting it. And these strong (and natural) responses can help you focus your priorities, but they're not a great asset to help you navigate all of these major decisions that impact you and your loved ones.
Imagine you're about to take a massive exam, but just went through some major emotional trauma (a divorce, the loss of a parent). You are given the option of having a TA check your math as you take the exam, pointing out where you should go over your reasoning or proofs one more time. You're smart, studied, and maybe you'll be fine. Even so, why would you ever say no to that option?
So, look for reliable objective support, not to replace, just to supplement your decisionmaking. (Like you're sort of doing here, and HN can be great, but a professional will be there next week too...)
I have a second recommendation that comes with some unjustified stigma: seek counseling.
Any healthy person can/will feel depression or even guilt about this diagnosis. You might be able to manage those emotions, but they might also sneak up on you when you're not expecting it. And these strong (and natural) responses can help you focus your priorities, but they're not a great asset to help you navigate all of these major decisions that impact you and your loved ones.
Imagine you're about to take a massive exam, but just went through some major emotional trauma (a divorce, the loss of a parent). You are given the option of having a TA check your math as you take the exam, pointing out where you should go over your reasoning or proofs one more time. You're smart, studied, and maybe you'll be fine. Even so, why would you ever say no to that option?
So, look for reliable objective support, not to replace, just to supplement your decisionmaking. (Like you're sort of doing here, and HN can be great, but a professional will be there next week too...)