I'm not depressed but I feel like every year has been getting progressively worse over the past decade. I'm working hard and taking significant risks. I achieved all my technical goals this year; some which seemed almost impossible, but financially-speaking, I keep getting poorer. The smarter I get, the harder I work, the poorer I get.

I'm at a point where I've identified all the things that are holding me back. I know exactly what's going on in the economy and society and so I can make sense of my own situation - But I can't think of a way to pull myself out of it without engaging in behavior that I consider unethical.

I feel like everyone in society is becoming progressively more selfish over time. It's become impossible to make new friends because relationships have become incredibly shallow, financialized and transactional. I don't even see the point of making friends anymore because it just feels like everyone is acting. People just don't meet my minimum standards to qualify for friendship these days.